A big chunk I am working the past days on myself is, why have I lived my life how I did. Why have I taken big decisions, which were the reasons and importantly: with no regrets.
For example: with 16, I had to decide after finishing “pre high school” between the following fields: Engineering, Economy or Social type of education. Those would be also the decisions for my major in college (at that time, it never came to my mind that I still could do what i want).
So, I choose Engineering and then, if I will be accepted, study a field of engineering.
- I could earn a degree in a field which usually has a high demand
- I would earn enough money to buy things etc
- I had a decent interest in engineering (I felt always in the wrong place when fellow students talked all the time about cars because I never had really the interest in them, thats why I also choose aviation engineering)
- My big brother studied aviation engineering
- I would live in a big city (Munich), live the city life, party, consumer (things) etc.
Still, it is hard to recall all the thoughts/feelings but those were the main ones but more and less, i choose it out of reasons which were taught me by society. Job, Safety, Money, House, Car and more Things
But I see in that still a way, which is not wrong because it lead me to where I am now and to the person I am right now in this moment. Reflecting the past, learning from it in the present and to use what I learned in the future. This will help me, to select my paths I am taking.
“And so we return, once again, to the essential question: How do we select a path through life? Which turns should we take? To what end?
To be able that questions, deftly and with foresight, is what we mean when we say someone is wise. Wisdom, not intelligence, not cleverness, not even moral goddess, but wisdom is what guides us through the unknown. Perhaps the word wisdom sounds horas to your ear. (Indeed, it does to mine)”
From “On trails” by Robert Moor Page 329
There is never an end to achieve wisdom. There is no measure, no rating, not the wisest person but there is the wisest yourself, which you can by learning constantly being aware of yourself.
Having read the book, I also found this piece about ancient wisdom. When talking about wisdom, the stoics were a group of people, who are mostly know for it. On this link above, you will find for example this:
“What the Stoics are saying is so much of what worries us are things that we have no control over. If I’m doing something tomorrow and I’m worried about it raining and ruining it, no amount of me stressing about it is going to change whether it rains or not. The Stoics are saying, “Not only are you going to be happier if you can make the distinction between what you can change and can’t change but if you focus your energy exclusively on what you can change, you’re going to be a lot more productive and effective as well.”
A lot what I read on this piece is already what I practice in my daily mediations. Looking forward to the day, reflecting what happened and being grateful (this Christmas, I gave all of my family a gratitude dairy as an additional present). Those are just short but meaningful practices, which helped me becoming more aware of my life and, for now, the wisest myself.