I am on my way to my first vipassana. For those who are not familiar with it, a brief explanation:
Vipassana is one of many practices of meditation. As all the others, it has the base of the Buddhist teachings to eliminate all suffering and practice your awareness through every day life.
Vipassana is a way of self-transformation through self-observation. It focuses on the deep interconnection between mind and body, which can be experienced directly by disciplined attention to the physical sensations that form the life of the body, and that continuously interconnect and condition the life of the mind. It is this observation-based, self-exploratory journey to the common root of mind and body that dissolves mental impurity, resulting in a balanced mind full of love and compassion. (https://www.dhamma.org/en/about/vipassana)
I have been thinking about the upcoming retreat and also constantly reminding myself to just let everything happen.
Emotions will come when i am ready and if it is the right time. If I am overwhelmed by certain emotions, I know that over the clouds the sky is blue. I have my own “safe place” where I retreat in my mind and feel safe. The teacher are there to accompany and guide us through.
I don’t know what it is going to happen as it is with the future. But I know one thing for sure. I am on my path. I am on the path where my thoughts, values and actions are aligned. I am on the path where I am aware of my surroundings and feel happy. I am on my path where I am feeling comfortable to be me.
Am I ready? I will never know but I know that everything that happen happens for a reason and it is with 100% certainty of myself.